Spent energy in my body, mind, and soul flows away from me, and I thankfully accept all things that refresh me
i apologize for the late posting, had a very busy morning. was up till about 1am working on a copy of my simply restorative dvd for one of my clients in my 11:30am class. then woke up at 7am to continue working on it, finished it at 10:30am LOL. of course when you have a deadline that's when computers laugh in your face right? but i got it all done and he seemed quite pleased, so YAY!
so i have begun referring to my "mother" only as "the woman who gave birth to me" lately. this is helping me break away from it all. because in my world, the definition of mother has the word LOVE in it. and she clearly doesn't fit that definition.
everyday that passes i feel stronger and more confident in myself. i am still battling self image demons, but i know those will take time, they formed after almost 29 years of time, it will take time to heal the wounds... on a funny note, all this video editing is forcing me to see myself A LOT LOL. i am starting to find some positives now with my body... still working on the face. =(
i have also felt guilty for the way some people have been treating me for losing all the weight i have. which i know now is very silly. i have worked so hard (and continue to) to lose the weight and tone my body. anyone can do the same. so the next time someone makes a snide remark or gives me a dirty look i am simply going to say to myself, "i have worked hard to achieve what i have now". if they have a problem with the way i look, then that is their problem not mine.
ok, this is about all my tired brain can compose for now hehe.
thank you for reading and thank you to everyone for their love and support! i love you all!!!!
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