i am worthy of love!so i was battling a major case of the blues today, not sure why exactly, i think part of it stems from self doubt. i am afraid i am not a very good yoga instructor, i am afraid that my new idea (the 30 day challenge) will be a complete flop, etc.
but then i was standing in the kitchen and my amazing hubby walked up behind me and held me in his amazing arms and said in my ear, "i am so proud of you. sometimes i wake up in the middle of the night and think about how proud and lucky i am to have you". i about broke into tears. of course being myself i have to ask if he truly means it, and he replied, of course. lol. one day i won't fear that things like this said to me are only said to make me feel better and have no real feelings behind them. just like how i think he's crazy (and blind) for thinking i am beautiful.
i am very blessed. even though life is in a pretty crappy stage at the moment, it is also revealing to me some real gems. i have some pretty amazing friends, family, and "adopted" family members. but above all (and you all know i love you all!) i have the most amazing husband! he loves me no matter what, even if i am a bit nuts at times lol. i never forget this, but sometimes i let the bad in life get to me and don't focus enough on the good. and in the good department i am rich with real love. so what if my birth mother has never and will never love me the way she should, i have people in my life that love me more than i think i realize and that's a pretty awesome thing!!!
so as always, thank you all for supporting and loving me, i love you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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